No love allowed...

You started to open up to me, but what for?

You mentioned being roommates, but what for?

You asked if I had ever thought about a relationship, but what for?

You said "we should go on vacation together"…

"Or with people"…

"Or just us"... BUT WHAT FOR?

You said you wanted to be my friend for a long time…

You know keep me under your wing... 

Well, what happened?

Did you suddenly forget that I am human as well and have feelings too?

What were your intentions?

Seriously, what were you trying to do?

It isn’t fair...

Do YOU think it is?

If the roles were reversed, how would you take it?

Is it really 'kay to treat someone the way you treated me?

I don’t think I could ever do that to anyone… 

But I guess we’re cut from a different cloth huh?

And then you have no emotions towards my reaction to this act of disrespect… 

I’m dramatic?

Is my vagina showing now?

Or are you just being a penis?

You LET.... 

MADE me get closer!

You even asked me to open up to you, let my guards down,

 BUT WHAT FOR?

Do you get satisfaction out of hurting someone, so much that they have to forcibly do normal things like eating, sleeping, breathing…?

I’ve been through lots, and maybe I don’t talk about it because I don’t feel like having a pity party over something I’ve survived through.

Maybe I’m guarded for a reason.

Maybe I don’t think everyone should know EVERY single little thing that happens in my thoughts.

Maybe some things that happen are private and for the best reason in the world……

So that I don’t get hurt…

And do you know what the worst thing is?

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The worst thing is that aside from me being hurt, 

I am still not vindictive.

You’re lucky.

I can see how you are with her, 

I can see our similarities and our differences

and I could have said anything I wanted to her,

but I didn’t because I respect you as a friend.

Something you don’t do for me.

So when you sit back and think… 

“What happened to her? She used to be different…” 

Just remember YOU were the one who took the Friend out of Friends with Benefits, 

and lost the benefits along with a friend..........